Entry No. 4

Cold Air

The clock reads 2:27. The moon shines brightly through my open window, a cool breeze chills me to the bone, but I don’t close it. Cold air makes me feel alive. Cold air… cold air is the only presence in my lonely bed.

Nightmares must have woken me up again. They may have been filled with monsters, but more likely they were filled with him. He’s been gone for 3 months, but I still hope he’ll come back. Maybe that’s why I left the window open. Maybe I wanted him to climb through it like he used to. Or maybe I just wanted cold air.

How is it possible that his side of the bed still has a slight indent? Shouldn’t that have gone away soon after he left? I’m almost grateful for it. Anything that was left of him was appreciated. Like the shirt he left under my bed and the movies he’d kept on the coffee table.

The worst day since he left must have been the day I stopped noticing his scent. It was gone from the pillows on the bed and the shirt that adorns my body. I had considered going out and buying his cologne, but some part of me knew that was ridiculous.

It was time to accept that he wasn’t coming back. Maybe right now, 2:34 a.m. would finally be the moment I could let him go. But I’m not sure how. How does someone just let go of the person they love? The best way to start would probably be to stop thinking about him.

...

Of course that didn’t work. Now the neon numbers say 2:36 a.m. Its 2:36 a.m. and I am still in love with him.

I know that I’ll still love him at 2:37 a.m.

And 2:38 a.m.

And probably at 2:39 a.m. every day for the foreseeable future.

The only thought that gives me any kind of comfort is maybe, just maybe he is lying awake thinking about me too.

Entry No. 3

BOOKWORMISH

HIYA GUYS!

I will be posting today about my favorite books at the moment that I have read and let me tell you that they are my actual faves! I am posting 5 books that I seriously can't get it out of my head! Enjoy!

1. The Statistical Probability of Love At First Sight

This is the bomb! (just like the other books). I love this book because... I really don't know why I love this book. It makes you think that can you possibly feel love at first sight? I know that it sounds stupid and all but there are couples that believes in love at first sight. Now I'm getting off the real topic here so you should try to read it sometime (preferably on a rainy day to get the feels).




2. This Is What Happy Looks Like

Now this book is dedicated to those who still think that emails rock! haha! Anyways, I absolutely adore this book because Graham Larkin is boyfriend-material for me. This book is about a famous actor and a simple girl feat. wrong-send emails, and adventures of finding whoopie pie.




3. Every Day

This book is special to me because this is very different from the other books that I read and because I cried reading the last part. It is a very intriguing book for me that's why you should really read this book!




4. Eleanor & Park

I know that this is pretty famous and all (and i heard a rumor about it being a movie) but this is a pretty cute story for me but it left me hanging onto the last words. I wish it would have a sequel or at least let it have another POV of the story.




5. Lullabies

This book is a book full of poems and it's a really cute book for me because it gives me feels and all that and you should really read this if you're a fan of literature and whatnot.





So that's that and I really hope you try to read at least one of them and let me know what you think about the books! You can also suggest me books to read because I am really bored and I want to read other books but I am running out of books to read so please share it to me!


Always Yours,
Erika xx

Entry No. 2

He Left

It was a Thursday afternoon when we saw each other.

You were with your friends, and I was with mine.

We had common friends that’s why we met.

...

I looked at you to remember you,

But all I saw was flashes

You were talking with your friends when you 

Saw me staring at you.

You just smiled and got back with your friends,

Leaving me dumbfounded.

And from then on, there was a connection.

...

We always texted with each other.

Day and night, midnight or high noon.

There was no stopping us.

...

But then you have to leave,

In a week’s time to be exact.

I was devastated.

...

I would miss our playful banters and funny conversations.

Our serious talks and cooking lessons.

I would miss all of it.

And I would miss you

...

I would miss your laughs and sarcastic comebacks,

And all of your life lessons.

I’ll miss the way we talk.

Because I know, it wouldn’t be the same when you leave.

...

But then the inevitable happened,

You left.

I asked you before if you packed all your things for when you leave.

You didn’t know 

that you packed my heart with you.

What's Up?

HEY GUYS!

Sorry that i haven't really posted anything here since my last post.

I know that i said that I have been getting inspiration but i didn't know how to put it in words. That's why I will post another post (haha, see what i did there?) later on because i really think that my blog is worthless on what I have been posting since the time i started this blog so bear with me IF you have been keeping track on this blog...

SO SORRY!

To anyone who views my blog,


I AM TRULY SORRY!


I am sorry for not posting for like a year because sadly, i didn't have any inspiration to do so.

Anyways, i learned/knew a lot when i was gone but i'm probably gonna keep it as a secret!



BYE!!!!

Yours Truly album

YOURS TRULY ALBUM!!!

This album is by Ariana Grande and this album contains a lot of relatable songs that you should listen! Here are some of my favorite songs in her album:

 

 

Honeymoon Avenue

It seemed to make a lot more sense
Than what I see ahead of us, ahead of us, yeah.
I'm ready to make that turn
Before we both crash and burn
Cause that could be the death of us, the death of us, baby
You know how to drive in rain
And you decided not to make a change
Stuck in the same old lane
Going the wrong way home
I feel like my heart is stuck in bumper-to-bumper traffic,
I'm under pressure
Cause I can't have you the way that I want
Let's just go back to the way it was
When we were on Honeymoon Avenue
Honeymoon Avenue
Baby, coastin' like crazy
Can we get back to the way it was?
Hey, what happened to the butterflies?
Guess they encountered that stop sign
And my heart is at a yellow light, a yellow light
Hey, right when I think that we found it,
Well, that's when we start turning around
You're saying, "Baby, don't worry,"
But we're still going the wrong way, baby
You know how to drive in rain
And you decided not to make a change
Stuck in the same old lane
Going the wrong way home
I feel like my heart is stuck in bumper-to-bumper traffic,
I'm under pressure
Cause I can't have you the way that I want
Let's just go back to the way it was
When we were on Honeymoon Avenue
Honeymoon Avenue
Baby, coastin' like crazy
Can we get back to the way it was?
They say only fools fall in love
Well, they must've been talking about us
And sometimes I feel like I've been here before
I could be wrong, but I know I'm right
We gon' be lost if we continue to fight
Honey I know, yeah,
We can find our way home
I feel like my heart is stuck in bumper-to-bumper traffic,
I'm under pressure
Cause I can't have you the way that I want
Let's just go back to the way it was
When we were on Honeymoon Avenue
Honeymoon Avenue
My baby, coastin' like crazy
Can we get back to the way it was?
When we were on Honeymoon Avenue
Honeymoon Avenue
Baby, coastin' like crazy
Can we get back to the way it was?
Baby, you know how to drive in rain
You decided not to make a change
Stuck in the same old lane
Going the wrong way home
I feel like my heart is stuck in... traffic,
I'm under..., pressure, pressure
Let's just go back to the way it was
When we were on...
(Honeymoon Avenue, Honeymoon Avenue, Honeymoon Avenue, Honeymoon Avenue)
Let's just go back, back, back. 

I looked in my rear view mirror and

 

Tattooed Heart

 

You don't need a lot of money
Honey you don't have to play no games
All I need is all your loving
To get the blood rushing through my veins

I wanna say we're going steady
Like it's 1954,
No, it doesn't have to be forever
Just as long as I'm the name on your tattooed heart

(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)

You don't need to worry about making me crazy
'Cause I'm way past that
And so just call me, if you want me
'Cause you got me, and I'll show you how much I wanna be on your tattooed heart

(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)

Just as long as I'm the name on your tattooed heart
Wrap me in your jacket, my baby
And lay me in your bed
And kiss me underneath the moonlight
Darling let me trace the lines on your tattooed heart

(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)
(tattooed heart)

Just as long as I'm the name on your tattooed heart

Daydreamin

You walked in
Caught my attention
I've never seen
A man with so much dimension
It's the way you walk
The way you talk
The way you make me feel inside
It's in your smile
It's in your eyes
I don't wanna wait for tonight
So I'm daydreamin'
With my chin in the palm of my hands
About you,
You and only you
Got me daydreaming
With my chin in the palm of my hands
About you,
You and only you
For you oh oh oh ohh
For you oh oh oh ohh
For you oh oh oh ohh
For you oh oh ohh
Now I can't wait
To hold you in my arms
I know I was made for you
I'm in love with all of your charm
It's the way you walk
The way you talk
The way you make me feel inside
It's in your smile
It's in your eyes
I don't wanna wait for tonight
So I'm daydreamin'
With my chin in the palm of my hands
About you,
You and only you
Got me daydreaming
With my chin in the palm of my hands
About you,
You and only you
And I want you
Got to have you
And I need you
Like I never have
Loved before
Oh I want you
Oh I need you
Got to have you
Like I never have
Loved before
So I'm daydreamin'
With my chin in the palm of my hands
About you,
You and only you
Got me daydreaming
With my chin in the palm of my hands
About you,
You and only you
For you oh oh oh ohh
For you oh oh oh ohh

Soo these are my FAVES in the album so go try it out!!!

MAROON 5!!

 

SOO... This is one of my favorite bands aside from One Direction and etc... but heyy!! you should try to listen to their Overexposed album because it has so many great song that you should listen to....

This is my favorite song in the Overexposed album.


Just A Feeling

I watched you cry, bathe in sunlight by the bathroom door
You said you wish you did not love me anymore
You left your flowers in the backseat of my car
The things we said may have left permanent scars

Obsessed, depressed at the same time
I can't even walk in a straight line
I've been lying in the dark no sunshine
No sunshine, no sunshine

She cries, "This is more than goodbye
When I look into your eyes
You're not even there"

It's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
Just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
'Cause it's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling
(I can't believe that it's over)

You've hit your low
You've lost control, you want him back
You may not believe me but I gave you all I had

Undressed, confessed that you're still mine
I rolled around in a bed full of tears and I
I'm still lying in the dark, no sunshine
No sunshine, no sunshine

She cries, "This is more than goodbye
When I look into your eyes
You're not even there"

It's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
Just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
'Cause it's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling
(No, I can't believe that it's over now)
It's just a feeling, just a feeling that I have

So much to say it's not the way she does her hair
It's the way she seems to stare right through my eyes
And in that darkest day that she refused to run away
From love she tried so hard to save

It's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
Just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
It's just a feeling
It's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
Just a feeling, just a feeling that I have

It's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
(I can't believe that it's over)
Just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
(I can't believe that it's over)

And I can't believe that it's over, yeah

Wipe Your Eyes

 

I'm afraid that I gotta do what I gotta do
But if I let you go, where you gonna go?
We gotta make a change, time to turn the page
Something isn't right, I don't wanna fight you
We've been through tougher times, you know it gets worse
We can turn this around please let me be first
And as I feel your tears spilling on my shirt
Something isn't right I don't wanna fight you

[Chorus]
Hey you, come over and let me embrace you
I know that I'm causing you pain too
But remember if you need to cry (cry)
I'm here to wipe your eyes

Tonight before you fall asleep
I run my thumb across your cheek (across your cheek)
Cry 'cause I'm here to wipe your eyes
I know I made you feel this way
You gotta breathe, we'll be okay (be okay)
Cry 'cause I'm here to wipe your eyes

Oh nah nah oh nah nah nah nah
'cause I'm here to wipe your eyes
Oh nah nah oh nah nah nah nah

When did we cross the line?
How could we forget?
Why do we let the pressure get into our heads?
Your broken heart requires all of my attention
'cause something isn't right, I don't wanna fight you

[Chorus]
Hey you, come over and let me embrace you
I know that I'm causing you pain too
But remember if you need to cry
I'm here to wipe your eyes

Tonight before you fall asleep
I run my thumb across your cheek (across your cheek)
Cry 'cause I'm here to wipe your eyes
I know I made you feel this way
You gotta breathe, we'll be okay (be okay)
Cry 'cause I'm here to wipe your eyes

Please don't lose your faith
Don't worry 'cause I'm here to keep you safe
I promise if you let me see your face
That I won't let you down
I won't let you down
I'm here to wipe your eyes

Tonight before you fall asleep
I run my thumb across your cheek (across your cheek)
Cry 'cause I'm here to wipe your eyes
I know I made you feel this way
You gotta breathe, we'll be okay (be okay)
Cry 'cause I'm here to wipe your eyes

 

 

You all should listen to these 2 songs cause I promise you it's one of the greatest songs of Maroon  5