Entry No. 6

Horror Story

It’s scary isn’t it

The feeling that you planned

your whole life with someone

who doesn’t know you

or is just  a figment of your dreams.

That feeling that you would

 never even meet him

‘cuz just thinking about it is crazy.

Entry No. 5

Unforgettable

It’s been over a year,

but I still check in on you

when I’m feeling

particularly foolish.

It’s very strange.

I always expect

to feel sad

or jealous

or pitiful.

But I never do.

I always feel

grateful, even lucky,

to have known you.

And for a moment,

it feels like I still do.

I miss knowing you.

Loving you

became a nightmare.

But knowing you

was always lovely.

Entry No. 4

Cold Air

The clock reads 2:27. The moon shines brightly through my open window, a cool breeze chills me to the bone, but I don’t close it. Cold air makes me feel alive. Cold air… cold air is the only presence in my lonely bed.

Nightmares must have woken me up again. They may have been filled with monsters, but more likely they were filled with him. He’s been gone for 3 months, but I still hope he’ll come back. Maybe that’s why I left the window open. Maybe I wanted him to climb through it like he used to. Or maybe I just wanted cold air.

How is it possible that his side of the bed still has a slight indent? Shouldn’t that have gone away soon after he left? I’m almost grateful for it. Anything that was left of him was appreciated. Like the shirt he left under my bed and the movies he’d kept on the coffee table.

The worst day since he left must have been the day I stopped noticing his scent. It was gone from the pillows on the bed and the shirt that adorns my body. I had considered going out and buying his cologne, but some part of me knew that was ridiculous.

It was time to accept that he wasn’t coming back. Maybe right now, 2:34 a.m. would finally be the moment I could let him go. But I’m not sure how. How does someone just let go of the person they love? The best way to start would probably be to stop thinking about him.

...

Of course that didn’t work. Now the neon numbers say 2:36 a.m. Its 2:36 a.m. and I am still in love with him.

I know that I’ll still love him at 2:37 a.m.

And 2:38 a.m.

And probably at 2:39 a.m. every day for the foreseeable future.

The only thought that gives me any kind of comfort is maybe, just maybe he is lying awake thinking about me too.

Entry No. 3

BOOKWORMISH

HIYA GUYS!

I will be posting today about my favorite books at the moment that I have read and let me tell you that they are my actual faves! I am posting 5 books that I seriously can't get it out of my head! Enjoy!

1. The Statistical Probability of Love At First Sight

This is the bomb! (just like the other books). I love this book because... I really don't know why I love this book. It makes you think that can you possibly feel love at first sight? I know that it sounds stupid and all but there are couples that believes in love at first sight. Now I'm getting off the real topic here so you should try to read it sometime (preferably on a rainy day to get the feels).




2. This Is What Happy Looks Like

Now this book is dedicated to those who still think that emails rock! haha! Anyways, I absolutely adore this book because Graham Larkin is boyfriend-material for me. This book is about a famous actor and a simple girl feat. wrong-send emails, and adventures of finding whoopie pie.




3. Every Day

This book is special to me because this is very different from the other books that I read and because I cried reading the last part. It is a very intriguing book for me that's why you should really read this book!




4. Eleanor & Park

I know that this is pretty famous and all (and i heard a rumor about it being a movie) but this is a pretty cute story for me but it left me hanging onto the last words. I wish it would have a sequel or at least let it have another POV of the story.




5. Lullabies

This book is a book full of poems and it's a really cute book for me because it gives me feels and all that and you should really read this if you're a fan of literature and whatnot.





So that's that and I really hope you try to read at least one of them and let me know what you think about the books! You can also suggest me books to read because I am really bored and I want to read other books but I am running out of books to read so please share it to me!


Always Yours,
Erika xx

Entry No. 2

He Left

It was a Thursday afternoon when we saw each other.

You were with your friends, and I was with mine.

We had common friends that’s why we met.

...

I looked at you to remember you,

But all I saw was flashes

You were talking with your friends when you 

Saw me staring at you.

You just smiled and got back with your friends,

Leaving me dumbfounded.

And from then on, there was a connection.

...

We always texted with each other.

Day and night, midnight or high noon.

There was no stopping us.

...

But then you have to leave,

In a week’s time to be exact.

I was devastated.

...

I would miss our playful banters and funny conversations.

Our serious talks and cooking lessons.

I would miss all of it.

And I would miss you

...

I would miss your laughs and sarcastic comebacks,

And all of your life lessons.

I’ll miss the way we talk.

Because I know, it wouldn’t be the same when you leave.

...

But then the inevitable happened,

You left.

I asked you before if you packed all your things for when you leave.

You didn’t know 

that you packed my heart with you.

What's Up?

HEY GUYS!

Sorry that i haven't really posted anything here since my last post.

I know that i said that I have been getting inspiration but i didn't know how to put it in words. That's why I will post another post (haha, see what i did there?) later on because i really think that my blog is worthless on what I have been posting since the time i started this blog so bear with me IF you have been keeping track on this blog...

SO SORRY!

To anyone who views my blog,


I AM TRULY SORRY!


I am sorry for not posting for like a year because sadly, i didn't have any inspiration to do so.

Anyways, i learned/knew a lot when i was gone but i'm probably gonna keep it as a secret!



BYE!!!!